Through the years, my faith has gone through a dramatic course. I was raised in a Catholic home and even attended Catholic school. But at young age, I considered myself to be a profound and independent thinker and as such, I questioned the existence of god. I therefore labeled myself as an agnostic. After the tragic death of my mother, a life I believed to be taken too soon, I no longer had a need for god or religion and crossed over to the dark side to atheism.
There I stayed for most of my adult life until the quest for understanding our deeper purpose brought me to a spiritual place. I often found myself referring to the spiritual force of the universe as God – so I came to believe in God, once again.
What brought me back to this spiritual place was a belief in a power that is greater than me. My rekindled belief in God didn’t occur as an epiphany, but instead it was an evolutionary process. In reading dozens of books written by religious orators and spiritualists, I have come to feel that faith is the ultimate power of the universe and without it, we limit our potential as humans beings; while with faith, we are limitless.
I never fully returned to Catholicism, because I questioned the integrity of the Church and its politics. Instead I went straight to the source and read the gospel directly from the Bible. And just as every teacher encouraged us to read the book instead of seeing the movie, what I gleaned was greater than I would have ever imagined – there is a reason that the Bible is the greatest story ever told.
But drawing parallels between the lessons of the Bible and modern day life can be challenging. That is why I turn to modern day spiritualists for learning and inspiration.
Today, I happened to watch a segment taught by Eckhart Tolle, about his new book “A New Earth.” During the segment, a caller dialed in and asked a question about the Crucifixion of Jesus. Eckhart spoke about the cross as the tool of Christ’s torture, but stated its representation as a symbol of divinity. He further explained that we all have our cross to bear, and only when we have faced what tortures us, will we be able to walk in our truth and into the divine.
I knew exactly what he meant by this. I have always believed that my cross to bear has been my dealing with my mother’s death. Who I am today, is a direct result of her death. When it happened, it was excruciating. But even still, I never ran from the pain. Instead I suffered through and once I healed, I saw the divine; and then it became my greatest source of strength and inspiration.
Eckhart continued to talk about our pain body. It is our cross to bear and the baggage we carry. And we all have it. It is the hot button that sets you off in what would be a casual and harmless discussion. Recognition is the first step in healing.
This post is dedicated to anyone who is searching for greater purpose as well as anyone who has a tendency to push down their emotions and ignore their pain body.